2nd Jan
Nothing special had happened in college but throughout the day, I was thinking about   him.

Was I smitten by his looks? True, he is handsome but I, daughter of great Nandita sen should not bowled over by just good looks. My upbringing has taught me to see beyond the looks. Then what?

Is it his personality?  Agreed --for a Punjabi, he speaks good Bangla   but it is nothing extra-ordinary. I think I had   detected a snobbish attitude in his persona.

  Is that attitude affected my normal expression?

Did I feel a hidden pull that stopped me acknowledging him openly? I don’t know what it is but one thing I am sure.  It would be better for me if we never meet again.

 Strange!!! Yesterday I wanted to erase that evening from my life and today I have been blabbering about him – one full page!!

Sure, Ruby would have teased me. She would told  “ Sanju  you have been struck by   Cupid. Only one doctor can remove that deadly Arrow. Seems I have to   inform Amrita about this emergency.

But Diary – do you find anything abnormal in me? Yes, I have thought a bit about him. But it is just curiosity – an urge to know some unknown quantity. May an intense desire to know an unknown mind .May be once I know him better this feeling will evaporate.

But why of all people I want to know him?

Is it a reciprocal feeling? Why I imagine that he had shown some special attention to me? Why I feel that his eyes had followed me silently throughout the evening? Why am I so crazy to talk about him at this dead of night?